Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Day 1. 7/12/11

You left yesterday, shiped off for a full 6 months... I keep listening to sad music. I even have the urge to rent movies like dear john, which we both know I hate. Its funny how you miss someone so much you start to feel sick, out of place. Im trying to find other things to keep me busy, like writing this as if its to you. Im going to re-read harry potter 7 today, then watch the movies all night. I have my 2nd interview today in a half hour, im kind of nervous but im just going to go and be myself.  On another note, montana is really depressed, im breaking his heart. Josh says to do what makes ME happy, it's new to me, I usally dont do things for myself. I supose it's time that happends though right?
I need a change of scenery.
I might just cut off my hair, dye it dark brown or black.. and start over.
Remember when i danced in the rain ? you just stood and watched me.. then walked out there, took me in your arms and kissed me. :)
I relize that im rambling and nothing fits together, but my brain is scrambled.. i know your fighting for us. I just wish you didnt have to leave me to do that..

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